I weighed myself today.
And I was shocked to see how far destructive I’ve been to myself.
No, extra fats on your abs and thigh and arms are not beautiful.
No, buying new clothes just to fit the new you is not okay.
No, triple chin is not pretty.
No, doing whatever you want eating however you like are not acceptable.
I dislike the ongoing campaigns on accepting and loving your body, regardless of how you look.
Don’t get me wrong, being born with whatever size of eyes, nose, face is okay. But by putting on weight or losing them the unhealthy way is NOT beautiful, guys.
I cringe when I look at ads of obviously obese people posing and a lengthy written caption on how we all should accept ourselves, love ourselves, obese or not, fat or skinny, or in other realistic way of putting it–
love yourselves cause oh, we don’t have much time don’t we?
Being obese IS NOT beautiful, it’s unhealthy, it’s damaging, you’re abusing yourself.
You might think you’re looking beautiful, I don’t argue with that, but by trying to put an impression that it is okay to look that way, I’m sorry. It’s not. You’re internally suffering, and please reconsider your loving yourself definition.
I started gaining weight exponentially four years ago. It started with few hundreds grams, then few kilograms, and it hasn’t stopped. Back then when I was in degree years, I was super active. Gaining 5kilos during semester break would only mean losing 7 when it reopens. I was always on the go and I was always somewhere doing outdoor. I wasn’t fair, I had burnt face all the time, but I know my body was healthy. It was fine, I was fit. I didn’t paint going up the stairs, my knees didn’t hurt, I didn’t have shortness of breath when I walked around all day, my skins were always dark but they weren’t sensitive, I didn’t get fatigue easily, I wasn’t losing hair, etc etc.
I’m sick, and no one to blame but me. I allowed myself to get this far and I know I should start correcting it. I am not obese but I am clearly borderline now. I know my body is not okay because I’ve been living with this for 26 years. I am unhealthy. I get sick very often. I always have headache. I always suffer stomach cramp. At the rate my hair is falling right now, I might be bald in no time. My skin is weird. My body is weird. My hormones are off.
Why did it take me so long to finally realise I need to help myself?
Guys, I know your life is yours but do not be selfish. Take care of yourself and treasure your body in a healthy way. Don’t go posing half nude showing all your extra extras and write ‘Love yourself. There is no fat people or skinny people. We’re all human.’ YES. But there’s sick human and healthy human, too. Don’t be stupid and say ideal people get sick too. Yes they do, but at least they try their best to care for their body. You don’t and yet you’re asking people to join your parade and agree with you. Body shaming is not alright yes, but you’re putting the shame on yourself if you fail to see that loving yourself only makes sense when you’re really putting an effort to do so.
Google the effects of being obese. At what percentage are we today? At what percentage does obese people are suffering and dying from serious health issues?
Take care, guys. Be beautiful by staying healthy.
Don’t go for skinny, or don’t go for ‘I am 200kilos and I’m beautiful’, go for ideal. Go for a better life. Don’t you want to be fit enough to care and spend time with your loved ones? Cause chances are, if I continue to live the way I do right now, I might not have much time.