If there’s one thing I love about my roller coaster, tough, expensive, mentally challenging and physically draining master journey is..
how I get to re-connect with The Most Merciful, Most Kind.
It has been one veryyyyy long phase, it has been tiring, but it still is somewhat amazing too. I hope I will always, always remember to be grateful and to thank Allah SWT for even the littlest blessing because without this feeling of security that He is watching over me, I am nothing. There were days I really didn’t want to go on anymore, days I cried for hours and slept with tears streaming down my face, nights that felt too lonely, gloomy evenings, and hungry afternoons. But there were also beautiful days filled with kindness, good food, laughter, new knowledge and skills, iced chocolate, the sea, loving people and blissful feelings. So every time I feel down, I allow myself to cry. I would cry my heart out sometimes for no absolute reason. It does make me feel lighter. I do not believe in suppressing your emotions so it would make you stronger, that is just a plain bs. Celebrate your feelings but remember, you must also realise there are more to life and more to you. You are important. Even if you feel differently, I promise there’s someone out there that loves you and would always cheer for you. The world can be harsh sometimes but the world can also be a kind place. We all have had that moment we wanted to shut ourselves from the world, its okay. Cry, take a deep breath and when you’re ready, open your window again. Feel the cool breeze touching your face, feel the sun lighting your skin, feel the love that is there for you.
You are loved. You are kind. You are meaningful. Remember that.